i quit arbys caues it was gay. i need a new job now. i don't care what it is as long as im not doing cash register or at a fast food place.

i'm sick. i wasnt in school yesterday and i left early today. i've had a fever and my head, neck and nose are all fucked up.

Prom is coming up and im not really ready yet. i still need a purse and maybe shoes. i gotta get this shit done!

Harry's bday is also coming up. I need to get enough money for his presents.

I can't freaking wait for summer!!!

I'm going to take a bath before everyone gets home. It's so nice being home without anyone else here...

*Rach

i've had my permit for almost a month now. i passed just barely b/c i got three questions wrong. i love driving! its great. its hard to drive my mom's car though b/c its a big car and it has a lot of blind spots. i just need to keep practicing.

working at arby's really sucks. i want to quit but i'm going to find a new job first b/c i really need the money.

i hung out with friends yesterday that hadn't hung out with ina really long time. it was fun,.

Feeling sick cause i just drank diet dr. pepper and the bubbles make my stomach hurt haha.

I fainted 3 times yesterday. It was really scary. I was at Harry's friend's house and i just got really dizzy and i sat down and my whole body shook and i thought i had a seizure. i started sweating really bad and i went blind and deaf and all of the sudden i woke up laying on the guy's kitchen floor and everyone around me. i was like, am i on the floor? and harry was like, you just fainted. so i got up and i started getting dizzy again. they put a wet rag on my forehead and then all of the sudden i woke up laying on the kitchen floor AGAIN. i had no idea what had happened. harry led me outside for some air. i cooled off but i was shaking pretty bad and i felt really sick to my stomach. fainting is so scary, especially when you do it multiple times. i wonder if i have anxiety cause then i could get some zanex or something cool from my doctor. I'm glad harry was there cause he didn't let me just fall on the floor, he set me down on it.

me and harry watched Capote last night and before that we watched memoirs of a geisha which i thought was pretty good but my boyfriend hated it because it was a girly movie. oh well he had to sit through it anyway.

oh yeah i saw the movie sluggish or whatever at the movie theater and it was pretty good.

i'm getting my permit this saturday even though i was supposed to get it last saturday but my mom lost my social security card so we had to send away for a new one. yeah i know, i've only been able to have my licence for over a year now but whatever. its not like i've never driven before or anything :)

I love you harry!

*Rach

Me and Harry will be together for 1 year and 8 months on Valentine's day. I think he may take me out to eat somewhere nice.

This semester sucks. My classes suck. I have tons of homework everynight.

I'm currently looking for a job. Either the job doesn't work with my availability or they're not hiring right now. I really don't know what to do!!!

I love you Harry.

I had a picture of me up on here but then I made it private because I really just don't like the way I look...

I lost more weight...unless I already said it in here...but whatever.

I don't really know what to say I'm just so bored I had to do SOMETHING with myself. My parents are fucking forcing me to go to church....AHHHH! I know...it fucking sucks. I pretty much just keep getting up to go to the bathroom just to get the hell out of there...it's so fucking corny...all of it I just wanna puke. Anyway, my mom wanted to go to early church so I had to get up at 7 and then my dad was like, I was wrong about the time we really don't have to be there till 8:30 so I was up for an hour and a half because by the time I found this out I was all ready to go and everything and it would be stupid to go back to sleep then. Let me tell you, I needed a cigarette soooo baaaad after church. Everytime I go there I just wanna yell that it's all bullshit and lies but my parents would kill me. (My mom is really religious and psycho...not a good mix).

Well xmas is coming soon and I'm already seeing xmas lights and stuff and it's really pissing me off...I've realized this year that I really hate the holidays...especially since my family seems to get crazy when theyre coming up...especially my mother. Are all moms like that or what?

I cannot wait until 4 oclock...or if you want to be more precise...4:15...I can't wait to get the hell out of my house and for the fist day in a week I'm not being forced to come home for dinner which is a serious pain in the ass because the drive to my house is sooo fucking long especially in the dark because of the deer and harry's car doesn't have good brakes so he has to go extra slow too.

I love you harry

*Rachel